Bad Day

I am having a bad day, well really a bad week-- month-- in general. Don't feel like talking about it much however. So this post is really just for me. I find that writing about what I love makes me feel better, so I am going to be my own cheerleader for this one.

Today I got to spend the morning with Tyler. John took Genesis to Mimi's house and I was able to stay in bed later and cuddle with Tyler and then take him to get his 4 year old portraits made. I must say, he sure did look handsome. I can't wait to post those pics. He was good at the sitting too, all things considered. He made it pretty much effortless. I had at least a little bit of quality time and I enjoyed that. Though, he kept asking for his baby sister, he missed her lots. All along I thought that being alone at Mimi's would be harder on her, but apparently it is just as hard on him when they are apart. Mimi mentioned that Gen was calling for Tyler in her sleep.

Then it was time to head back to the office. Blah. As soon as I pulled in In My Daughters Eye's began to play on the radio. So I stayed in the car to listen to it. It gave me at least some peace and clarity, especially before coming in to work, which was really great.

And when she wraps her hand around my finger,

Oh, it puts a smile in my heart.

Everything becomes a little clearer.

I realize what life is all about.

It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough;

It's givin' more when you feel like givin' up.

I've seen the light: it's in my daughter's eyes.

Thanks Tyler and Genesis!

Happy Fathers Day!!

Happy Father's Day to all you Daddy's out there!

Especially to My Daddy, My Grandpa and My Husband. Thanks for everything and for being the best Dad's ever!!

Dad and Grandpa I dont know what I would have ever done without you and I am so thankful to be blessed enough to have you in my life. I am a lucky girl and wouldnt be here if it wasn't for you guys.

John, I couldn't have imagined you as a better Dad than you are. The kids are so fortunate to have such a caring, loving, hard working, smart, (and good looking of course) Dad as you. You are the best! THANKS FOR ALL YOU DO!

We love you all,

Veronica, Tyler Jon and Genesis Nicole

A Glimpse of a Day at the Lara Home

Yesterday started off as a typical morning at home for us. First we cuddle in bed for a little while and talk. Shortly after we head down for some breakfast. I get the kids situated then I sit down to have my breakfast and read. When we are almost done:

Genesis: Mommy can I have a straw to drink my milk? (she wants to drink what was left in her cereal bowl)

Me: Sure, Tyler, would you like one?

Tyler: NO (odd I think to myself)

Then I sit back down for a while. Looks like we are all done so I attempt to pick up.

Genesis: I am all done!

Tyler: Me too!

Me: OK, Gen give me your bowl please.

Gen: Here.

Me: Tyler give me yours too.

Tyler: NO

Me: We have to get ready to go Ty. Please give me that I say as I take it......

Then I notice his killer whale is in the rest of his milk. Tyler is in tears saying that if I throw it out his whale will die. The whale stayed in the bowl on the counter the rest of the day. Very sanitray, I know. What can you do though? He won this one.

Kissing My 20's Goodbye

There are so many reasons I am going to miss the 20's. I love the 20's, I wish I could be say, 27 forever! I encountered many exciting things in my 20's, below is a re-cap, in no particular order....

• Moved to NC
• Got engaged to my husband
• Had the wedding of my dreams
• Bought our first home together
• I grew up
• Had my first son, Tyler Jon
• Had my first daughter, Genesis Nicole
• Went on my first mission trip
• Have all of my family with me
• Got some great news about at least one good thing I will get in my first year of being 30
• No wrinkles (yet) :)

I think I can go on, but those are the big ones. Great, great, things. Big things. Unforgettable things. I have a feeling the 30's are just going to hold so many things for me that are just the inevitable. Maybe it is because I am getting old, maybe its the fear of the unknown, still I think the 30's are going to have a rough start.

Yet, I hope that by the time I am in my thirties I can come back here and report how wrong I was. I can only hope my list looks half as good as the one I wrote in my 20's. Many women say that in the 30's they found themselves, they became empowered, and that things are simply better. Maybe, just maybe, that will be me.

Is it really that bad?

Some things in life down right suck. No other way to put it. If you stop and take the time to look at the things you care about though, you quickly realize, that it just doesnt really matter.

Here is my dreamgirl this morning, more ready to tackle a day than I ever will be.

Have a great week,
Veronica

A Moment In Time..

Seems like lately all the hype is in movies and shows that reflect people with super powers of some sort. Our personal favorites at home being Smallville, Heroes, X-Men..... makes me wish sometimes I could have a super power of my own.

I wish I could stop time. Well, honestly, I wish I can be invisible sometimes too, but for all the wrong reasons. HA! So I think stopping time would be the way to go. You can thank my husband for these crazy thoughts in the first place. He is the one that encourages me to even watch these shows. He is a bad influence.

Really though, time is getting ahead of me these days more than ever. I can't find time to do the things I want or need to do and the days are jumbling together so quickly.

I cry every year on Tyler's birthday. Just because my baby is growing up so fast and really all my life he is all I ever wanted, and in a blink of an eye, there he goes. In just 11 days my little man is going to be 4. That means pre school, little league, kindergarten, I just cant do it you all!
Next it will be cars, girls and prom, then I will really lose it. He is his own person, not the baby I had to do every little thing for, and I miss that. Sometimes I think I need him more than he needs me.

Genesis is going to be 3 this year too, in just a couple of months. The beautiful baby girl with curls everywhere, and chubby cheeks is looking like a little pint sized lady these days. Still gorgeous of course, but you can see lady like features now, not just baby ones. Her hair is so cute, straighter now with huge curls at the ends. Her cheeks, more pronounced now, no longer the kind you have the urge to pinch. Her eyes, truly the prettiest ones I have ever seen. There has been such I change in her this Spring my heart can't take it. She is the SWEETEST girl ever to top it all off. Kisses and hugs and I love yous are never scarce with her.

These two are simply no longer babies. To the world anyway, to me they will always be my babies. Forever.

I will be 30 this year as well. (talk about heart ache) In about a month. It is overwhelming. 2007 is full of BIG things for the Lara Family. When I sit and think about it, its really just incredible. I am in awe of the way life goes...and goes.....

For today, I will think about how grateful I am for everything I have and for one more day to be alive and share in this amazing world. Tonight of course, I will pray that I can stop time and just stay here, in this moment, right where I am for a little while longer.