Zen, Soul, Bear and LOVE

To the people that get me through....

Zen, I had a bad day yesterday, couldn't wait to get home. I got through the day thinking of our nap this weekend. Now that you are a big boy, I miss those special cuddle times. Throughout the day I held on to your sweet embrace. Can we do it again? When I finally got home, you invited me into your happy little 6 year old world, and suddenly there was peace. We played Mario Kart, oh how you like to show off! Your giggle is worth a thousand words. Your happy place is delightful. My special kiss for the day, dreamy! You left my spirit happy, my troubles at bay if only for a while. Twister was so much fun too! Thank you for making me so very happy Tyler! What did I do before you?

Hey Soul.... How are you? This morning I brushed your long beautiful brown hair. I took my time even though the clock was ticking. I dressed you in your pink polka a dot shorts and pink polo, hardly believing I was sending my little 4 year old girl to Kindergarten. You are so brave my girl. You were radiant even though you didn't feel well. I looked into your big brown eyes..they were filled with speckles of me throughout. I see me in you; I can see way down to your core. I feel your troubles and triumphs somehow, it is weird, but I enjoy the gift. I am thinking of you today, all day, but you will do great. You need the reminder now and again, but you ARE great Gen. You really are.

Bella Bear, you put your tiny hand in mine and I am taken to another place, wishing it stayed that small just a little longer. That smile of yours to melt over, those hugs that can make me tear up at the very thought. You are so very tiny in comparison to the world, just a tiny speck in the midst of such greatness, but you are one of the things that can make me feel so safe in it. I held on tight to you this morning, like a child's favorite Teddy Bear. Held on tighter when I realized that one day you too would be getting ready for school. I looked in to your bright eyes and felt all right. They can light up the darkest of places. That twinkle in them is priceless. I cant wait to get home and see them again.

All this because two people fell in love....how fortunate am I? I love you John. Can't wait to see you and hug you too. Everything is so perfect in our tiny space on earth. Our home so happy and full, I will concentrate on that, as I always do, and I know we will all be fine.