Dark Confessions of a Good Mom ----- INTRO

Sometimes when I go through and read some of my old blog posts I realize how great everything sounds--most of the time. Especially, when the kids are involved. Motherhood, or parenting, is the single most difficult thing I have committed too. I am responsible for their health, happiness, enrichment, manners, morals, and the list goes on, basically, I am responsible for my children's lives. With so much responsibility as a Mother or parent, I think it is almost inevitable to make mistakes along the way. It comes with the territory.

Why are us Moms so embarrassed to talk about our mistakes? We are open to giving advice about breast feeding, making your own baby food, how to wean your child, or break them from a biting habit, but when we screw up, not many Mom's are willing to publicize it.

I get the fact that these mistakes aren't the ones that you usually want to talk about. Especially not on a public blog, but I have been thinking of my short comings as a Mom, and what I can do to be a better Mother. For a while I have been thinking about starting a new blog, along with this one, but then realized I can barely keep up with one. Two blogs would be just way too much pressure. So I just never did it.

Then I got Site Meter. It tells me who visits my blog, how long they were on, what pages they read, where they were from, how they found me etc. I was really just curious at the stats. What I found is that a lot of folks find me by mistake Googling parenting or children related subjects. Now I am taking a leap and writing about my freak out Mom moments as well. I have accepted that it is normal, and want others to feel at ease when they mess up as well. Hopefully some words some where will enlighten someone, even when I am not singing my children's praises, and let them know it is OK.

As a loving Mother-- I screw up. I want to scream. I want to start over. I want to cry. I make wrong decisions. Funny thing is, we all do, whether we admit it or not. As of late I am trying to find the beauty in my parenting woes. Its easy most of the time. It is easy because I love my kids, I want the very best for them, I want them to have the best Mom they can possibly have. So when I screw it up, I take a mental note, I move forward, I find the beauty in my mistake and learn from it, now I will blog about it too. I feel like writing it makes me more accountable. It feels good to know you are not alone, and messing up isn't an option, it is a fact.

The key for me when I do falter is find the beauty in it, the laughter it can bring us, and most importantly the fact that when I have really slipped, I care enough to take it with me and grow from it. I will share it here with you, and one day with my own children. No matter how small or big it is, I am a good mother, (and it took me some convincing to realize that I was because I take it so seriously that I felt this huge burden to be perfect and I definitely am not)I am learning to be a better Mom everyday, I confess, find the goodness in the mistake and move on. Hope you will follow me. This is my Intro to True Confessions of a Good Mom, Volume 1 coming soon.

xoxo
Veronica