Tuesday, May 29, 2007

You Just Might Cry Too.......


The kids and I had the greatest long weekend. I feel like we really got in some quality time. We went to pick strawberries, it was really hot, but we had a nice time, I will have to post some of those pics soon. Thanks to the greatest strawberries ever, we enjoyed great strawberry cake and strawberry smoothies, and I made John some strawberry margartias. On tonight's menu--Chocolate covered strawberries, yum-o.

We also spent a lot of time outside. They just love playing with their water table and playing in the hose and sprinklers. It was the best. It really wore them out, and they slept so good as soon as they hit the bed. The weather was just perfect, and it was really a great, great time.

Needless to say, this morning sucked. It is so difficult to leave on Monday mornings, and even more so after a long weekend. I hated to drop them off at Mimi's. I just wanted to hold them. They were so sweet that I can't seem to get myself used to it, and most Monday's I still cry after I drop them off, especially if I am alone without John. Tyler asked me to sit with him a while on the couch,and I had to say no because I was already running late as we hit some traffic. I hate saying no to him because he just doesn't understand why.


Counting down the hours til I get to go pick up my babies.......

~V

Sunday, May 27, 2007

I'm Loving It

  • The feeling of fresh cut grass on my bare feet.
  • Worn in flip flops.
  • The smell of freshly picked strawberries.
  • My children's laughter.
  • The delight of a long weekend.
  • Sunshine.
  • Cold water on my skin from the sprinkler..takes me back to my childhood.
  • The little things.....

Have a great long weekend,

Veronica

Thursday, May 24, 2007

At This Moment

Hello Friends. I hope this post finds you all doing well. Things have been same old same old for me though no day is ever exactly the same. Ordinary, I suppose is just not even possible with a 2 and a 3 year old, who needs ordinary anyway!?

Tyler saved my life this morning. LOL. He is always asleep on our way to dropping him off at his Mimi's but today my chatter box was awake. Talking to me, and talking, and talking some more, eventually waking up his sister who joins us in the conversation. These are the moments I live for.

All of a sudden he says :

"Mommy a bug!"
I say "WHERE?"
He replies, "right by you".

I tense up looking for the tiny bastard! I just can't stand any type of creepy crawly, yuck! Tyler says "mom right by you - by the wheel". How right he was! There it was, this little gross thing, with a red head or something, just coming my way on the dash. I pulled over of course and got him right out.

Genesis cheered. Tyler was interested in the well being of the bug, I explain that I didn't hurt it whatsoever, and he was glad. He will learn soon enough that his Mom is not brave and just cannot kill one. Oh gross, I cant even stand to hear the crunching sound when you step on one, ill. A friend of mine that I worked with tried to capture a bug or two countless times here at the office. She is almost as bad as me, we would scream, and laugh while she usually threw a cup or something over the nasties. I don't think Catie can step on one either!

I am thankful that he warned me of it! Knowing me, we would have been going down 55 chatting up a storm when I see that thing near me and I would have panicked and maybe rear ended someone or what have you. Thanks Tyler! I think this little boy will never know how many times and in how many ways he has saved his Mommy!

Other things I am thankful for at this moment:

* feeling well
* the unconditional love of my children
* having the greatest family ever
* being able to talk -uninterruptedly- to my kids for an entire half an hour before the craziness of the day
* having at least one true friend
* pants that fit -- ;)
* cute shoes
* right now
* the ability to just be numb




Monday, May 21, 2007

In The Blink Of An Eye

Ever hold the weight of the world on your shoulders and can't sleep for nights and nights and wake up so tired that your whole body aches without any relief? Yeah, terrible feeling, that's me these days. OK, so not so much the weight of the "world" I am not that brave, but just the weight of life, and my family , kids and friends is enough to do me in for some long lonely nights caught up in my own mind all by myself. That is probably the worst trap ever.

I was lucky enough to meet a wonderful client the other day though, and without even knowing it, she helps me get to sleep sometimes and put things in perspective. She is a mother of 2 grown women now and a grandmother to one little boy. She raised them on her own, a single mom. That right there tells you she is brave, brilliant, kind, caring, outspoken and gutsy right. She was truly awesome, and she doesn't even know it. She shared with me many stories, spoke to me about women rights, and enlightened me with the story of her daughters life.

When her daughter, Rachel, was only 29 years old (real awakening since that is my age), she woke up one day and her vision was blurred and she was blinking and nothing. So her husband took her to the emergency room. She got worse the next few days, she couldn't see, move or talk. They thought she would die. Doctors soon realized there was brain damage but they didn't know why. She slowly got a little better and was in the hospital for two months. It was later determined that she had MS.

The attack that almost killed her before they diagnosed her with MS left her with aphasia. This is a condition caused by brain damage that doesn't allow her to understand the entire world around her, and leaves her unable to find the words to express her self. Her entire world was simply changed forever. Nothing as it used to be.

With the love of a family a wonderful husband and son (I think he was only almost 1 when she had the attack and now is about 9 years old, I heard that this little boy, BEN, is completely in love with his mom, and she is his hero!), she is now able to drive and communicate a little better. Her hubby got them a one story home so she can get around, and now she even does some volunteer work. What an awesome story.

So if you are like me, lying there, trapped in your mind, pray it out. In the midst of all my chaos I am so thankful for EACH and every day. It is all such a blessing. The sun will still shine in the morning, life goes on all around us. Babies are born, flowers bloom, and butterflies come and go, try to take it in. My kids are becoming little people right before my eyes. They are my biggest love. As I lie there awake, sometimes with tears in my eyes, I am grateful for all that is around me and to be allowed the privilege of one more day. I go to sleep anxious to wake up the next morning and smell my babies and give them a big kiss as we start another beautiful day.

Nights can be an enemy if you let them. Life is a whirlwind that we have to try to keep close to our hearts in clear perspective. Take it in, as it can be taken away from us in literally just the blink of an eye! Life isn't a right, but really a God given privilege in my mind.

Lets live life to the fullest like hero's such as Rachel Polsky. You can read more about her awesome story here:
http://www.mult-sclerosis.org/news/Jan2002/WomanwMS10.html

With love,
Veronica

Friday, May 11, 2007

Happy Mothers Day!

Happy Mothers Day to all you Moms out there! Enjoy your special day.



My Mother
You told me what you thought ... but let me think for myself.
You told me what you saw.....but let me see for myself.
You told me where you have been......but encouraged me to go further.
You held me close to your heart........but never too tight for me to grow.
You always were my mother but became my best friend.


Author Unknown





Mom's See
the beauty in dandelion bouquets, and know the importance of declaring each and every drawing a work of art.


Mom's Find
the magic in blankets that become tents in backyard adventures, and stories that fall upon sleepy little ears.

Mom's Know
the fun of jumping on beds and hanging upside down, and giggles that just wont quit.
Mom's are the greatest,
especially ones who have the gift of seeing life through the eyes of a child.


BEFORE I WAS A MOM
Author Unknown


Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was Mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words of lullabies.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind.
I slept all night.


Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.


Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I
didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.


Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.